When it comes to relationships, we often don’t come together with others for the reasons that we initially think.

When it comes to relationships, we often don’t come together with others for the reasons that we initially think.

Remember, within every human being, there are multiple layers at play.

There is the conscious mind, and there is the unconscious mind. And they are both engaged when we enter into a relationship.

Our conscious mind will think that we are drawn to somebody for a certain handful of reasons, and yet if we are honest with ourselves, there’s always an inner sense of something far beyond our conscious understanding that is bringing us together with another.

This is why relationships are so alluring, because we can feel the intelligent pulse of our unconscious working through the energies of attraction and repulsion, and so relationships become a way for us to feel into the deeper dimensions of our being.

With this being said, much of the suffering and disharmony that we experience in relationship, isn’t actually coming from the relationship itself.

But rather, it’s coming from these different layers of ourselves being on different pages from one another. 

In other words, the real source of our suffering is an internal fragmentation between the conscious and the unconscious – from two parts of ourselves that are operating in conflict.

Our conscious mind will hold certain expectations around what a particular relationship is for, and yet our unconscious (the soul) will bring us into the relationship for completely different reasons, with its own series of lessons and wisdom that it is trying to connect us with. 

The unconscious mind will intelligently guide the journey behind bringing two souls together, but if the conscious mind is not on the same page as the unconscious, then the relationship will merely expose the internal fragmentation and the disharmony between the different layers of self.

So it’s not the relationship itself that is causing the suffering, but rather the internal fragmentation that was already present, that the relationship is bringing to the surface. 

To give a specific example:

Let’s say somebody’s going into a relationship consciously thinking that this person is going to be their “life partner”, and that this person will provide them with all of the security and safety that they need to make them happy for the rest of their life.

And on a deeper level, the unconscious (the soul) could care less about this person being their “life partner”, and is more interested in this relationship helping the person to develop certain qualities of their character that are necessary for them to carry out their soul’s calling.

So on one level, the person’s conscious mind is fabricating a false reality around what the relationship is for, full of its own projections, expectations, and social conditionings.

And on a deeper level, the soul (the unconscious), is bringing that relationship into that person’s life for a much more important reason – to help this person to embody the qualities of their true essence. 

So when the incompatibilities around “life partnership” begin to arise in the relationship, then it exposes the fragmentation between the different layers of the self that were already present to begin with. 

And so it’s this internal split that is the source of the suffering. Not necessarily the relationship itself.

(But if you are reading these words, and are currently in an abusive relationship, by all means, take yourself out of it! These words are intended to be a point of awareness, not an excuse to stay in something abusive)

As humanity enters into its next cycle of maturation, the way that we navigate relationships are going to change drastically.

This change is going to require us to shed our own “egoic” and conditioned expectations around what relationships are for, and allow the sacred mystery underlying the union of two souls to guide the blossoming of the relationship itself.

We often have it backwards, where we try to sculpt the relationship into what we “think” it should be, rather than allowing the relationship itself to reveal its true nature, from the deeper and more soulful dimensions of our being.

When we take this approach to relationships, then we respect and honor the Higher Universal Intelligence (God) that has a very specific reason for bringing two souls together, and we learn to trust the higher workings of Its orchestration.

So, at the end of the day, it’s not so much about finding the “right person”, as it is about coming into internal harmony with one’s own soul, and unifying the various layers of self.

And the way that we come into internal harmony is:

1.) Through establishing clear communication between the conscious and unconscious mind (intuition)

2.) Through humbly respecting the intelligence of the soul (even when it goes against what our ego thinks it wants) 

3.) And through prioritizing our connection to God (Source), above everything else.

We each have an umbilical cord, a line of communication, that connects our consciousness directly to Source (God).

We each have an umbilical cord, a line of communication, that connects our consciousness directly to Source (God).

The information streaming to us from this “umbilical cord” is what we experience as intuition. 

This communication link between ourselves and Source, is the most valuable tool that we have, and we have been conditioned for thousands of years to neglect this profound and integral aspect of ourselves. 

This is because if we were to understand the power that we have access to through our intuition, then every false authority of this world would crumble before our feet.

In this next chapter of humanity’s maturation, demystifying intuition and understanding it as an actual organic “technology” of consciousness is going to completely change the way that we understand ourselves as a species. 

I see this rediscovery of what intuition actually is, as being as revolutionary as the discovery of electricity, or the development of the internet, sparking major and profound changes in the way that we understand ourselves and how we function collectively. 

I also see this upsurge in intuitive understanding as being an important and necessary counter-movement, or response, to the dangers of A.I. and technological over-dependence. 

Imagine for a moment, that there is an aspect of your mind that has the answer to every single question, worry, concern and confusion that you have about your life. And that this aspect of your mind knows the perfect way to solve every problem, and that knows exactly what is in your highest good, and how to align you with this highest good in the most inspiring, healing, and effortless way. 

And none of this information is coming from any technologies or authorities outside of you. It is coming from within you, from your innate intuitive connection with Source.

Think about this for a moment… if you have an umbilical cord connecting you directly to Source (God), then it is obvious that there is a part of you that has access to all of this incredibly useful information. 

Now, realistically, it does take purification, along with a process of initiation, to clearly interpret the information streaming in from this umbilical cord. But, nonetheless, the access points to this information are completely there and well within each of our reach. It’s just a matter of learning ourselves well enough to access this dimension of our being. 

And when I speak of “purification”, I am speaking about a willingness to give up our own personal “egoic” judgments about who we think we are, and what we think we want (rooted in trauma, addiction, and conditioning), and giving those judgements over to the part of ourselves that truly knows what is in our highest good, as well as the highest good for all. 

This purification process is often extremely humbling for most people, not because it is difficult, but because it can be perceived as personally insulting to the conditioned identity structure.

But the profound and useful information that one has access to through cleansing this umbilical cord is well worth the process. 

Now, when I speak of Source (God), what I am actually speaking about is a shared Higher Universal Mind. It is the intelligence behind nature, behind the cosmic rhythms and pulses, and behind the mysterious orchestration that is organizing the experiences of our lives. 

It is the intelligence behind the blossoming of every flower, the sprout of every seed, the rising and setting of the sun, and every miracle of Creation.

When we penetrate the layers of our consciousness, and we go deep into the watery oceanic depths of the unconscious, then we access this Great Universal Mind with its incredible wellspring of intelligence, wisdom, understanding, and love. We access the intelligence of nature, of Light, itself.

And so this umbilical cord connects us directly to this shared Universal Mind, and it informs us on how to live harmoniously with the whole of existence – with nature, with the Earth, with the cosmos, and with ourselves. 

So intuition, when purified, is an internal guidance mechanism that instructs us on how to properly live in alignment with the whole of existence. 

This is why it has the answer to literally every problem that we face, both personally and collectively. 

And our healing as a species, will come from our rediscovery of this incredible connection and resource that is innate within each and every single one of us – our intuition, and our connection to God.

There is rhyme and reason behind everything that we go through.

A father unexpectedly loses the job that he’s had for years while trying to support his family. Terrified, with his wife and children to care for, he is forced into the unknown. 

A mother loses her child in a tragic and unexpected accident, and must grieve the loss of a life not fully lived, filled with confusion as to why her baby was taken from her.

Life has the potential to shock us with the unexpected, leaving us in the wake of utter confusion and disarray. We riddle our minds with why certain things happen, and why life seems to be at odds with us. 

Our understanding fails us in these moments. 

We face the fragility of our expectations, and of the way we think things are supposed to happen. 

What we usually cannot see when we are facing devastation, is that there is a deeper intention underlying the disarray of our experience. The circumstances, relationships, and happenings in our life are orchestrated in such a way to serve one primary purpose:

To break our hearts wide open.

This is so that we may know the power a love that is free of conditions, and that we may overflow with a relentless compassion that is destined to quench the thirst of every heart. 

So that we may cultivate a depth of empathy that is God-like. 

This doesn’t mean that it is easy, it makes sense, or must feel good – in fact, it usually doesn’t. But it is only through being entrenched in the depth of human experience, where we become broken open to the strength, compassion, and unconditionality of Divine Love.

These moments of devastation and confusion are part of a higher design. They are part of a code, of a universal patterning to help us evolve – to liberate Spirit from matter. 

There is rhyme and reason behind everything that we go through. 

The intelligence of life is never trying to disempower us into victimhood, but rather life is sculpting us, molding us, and gracing us with wisdom so that we may become the incredible masterwork that we were always destined to become.

Only God is Real.

“Only God is Real”

This statement has been echoing within me like an epic chorus woven throughout a melodious triumphant anthem. There’s been a voice within me, challenging me to bring my every fear, concern, guilt, pain, doubt and confusion to the altar of this statement. 

It tells me that beneath every fear that arises within my mind, there is a belief that there is something other than God present. And in this belief that there is something “other” than God, is a part of my mind that is trying to invest energy into something that is not actually there, in an attempt to validate a part of itself that doesn’t actually exist. 

And to be completely honest with you, I don’t fully understand it. But I recognize that I am not meant to fully understand, because miracles are the very thing that crumble the feeble walls of our limited understanding. Our understanding is wired for this world, yet miracles open us to the Reality beyond it. 

“Only God is Real” 

How can I say such a statement, when humanity is on the brink of nuclear war, when there is unprecedented death and disease, where our global economies are collapsing, when we are more polarized and divided than we’ve ever been, and when it seems as if we moving into an authoritarian regime governed by artificial intelligence? 

This statement seems bypassing, avoidant, disrespectful and blasphemous in the face of a bleeding and suffering humanity!

“Only God is Real”  

What if the suffering that we’re experiencing is our subconscious attempt to create a false world in order to validate a false self that doesn’t even exist? 

We can create an experience for ourselves, even if there is no reality to the experience itself. 

For example, a child can create a fearful experience of monsters living under their bed conspiring to devour them, even when there are no monsters actually there. The child will become frantic, and terror will completely envelope their mind and body, and they will gather all of their toy weapons to fight off the horrendous monsters that aren’t there. The child will create an entire reality within their mind, with hellish scenes replaying over and over, completely removed from the actual Reality that is present. 

“Only God is Real” 

What about bodies that are sick and dying? How could I say such a statement in the face of such literal death? 

There is a Reality that existed far before your birth, and that will continue to exist far beyond your death. Do you really think this little moment of time in a body, this blink of eye, has the power to split you off from the enormity of existence that you have forever been a part of? Even the healthiest bodies are destined to crumble and fade at some point, like sandcastles gradually being swept away into the vast expanse of the ocean waters. Bodies, as beautiful and strong as some may be, are temporary makeshift huts that are destined to return to dust from the very moment that they are made. 

So bodies are not so much of a solid thing, as they are an experience. 

And experiences happen in time. 

And what is Real is not bound by time. 

Because what is Real is forever. 

“Only God is Real”

And to be completely honest with you, I still don’t understand. But I recognize that I am not meant to fully understand, because miracles are the very thing that crumble the feeble walls of our limited understanding. 

Our understanding is wired for this world, yet miracles open us to the Reality beyond it.

“Only God is Real”

“The Offering”

This piece was actually inspired by my daily prayer practice, where over the past several years, I’ve made it a habit of waking up every morning and starting my day in prayer. 

Some days it’s a quick 2- 3 minute practice of setting the intention to be used as an instrument in the arms of God, and other days it can be a 2 – 3 hour devotional immersion deep into heartfelt communion, where I completely melt into my connection with the Creator. 

For me personally, prayer is probably the most fruitful and healing practice that I have established for myself. I honestly don’t know where I would be in my life without it. 

And prayer is so much more than just “talking” to God for me, it is a literal practice of attuning one’s mind to the mind of God, and of attuning one’s heart and perception to the frequency of Heaven. 

When we attune through prayer (or meditation), it is as if we take our perception of reality and turn it up several octaves in frequency, where we reach a state of hyper connectivity that enables us to see the interconnectedness between seemingly random experiences, which allows us to bear witness to the immaculate intelligence that works through all things. 

Think about it – everything in our reality is made of Light. Every atom, every molecule, every cell, every mineral is made of Light. And even abstract things, such as seasons and cycles in nature, are sourced from the geometry of Light. 

Plants are a good example of this, because they are raw earthen geometric expressions of Light. We can see the geometry of Light, the perfect intelligence of Light, made physically manifest through plants – through the gnarled wind-carved oak trees, to the spindly tendrils of honeydew vines, and through the bright and epic bloom of a sunflower. But in Truth, the very fabric of Reality itself is this perfect geometric expression of Light. That’s what Reality is. 

So, Light is geometry. 

And what is geometry, but perfect symmetry – perfect order. Perfect connectivity. It is musically and symphonically harmonious. 

So if everything is Light, then there must be a perfect order and symmetry underlying everything in our lives. 

And not just physical things, but the non-physical as well – the circumstantial, the relational, the emotional, the seasonal and the cyclical. The ebb and flow of life is highly intelligent. 

And there is a state of consciousness, of hyper-connectivity, that we can access that attunes us to the intelligence of this underlying symmetry – this underlying perfection, where we perceive Reality from the very fabric of Reality itself. 

In this state, we become like a linguist decoding the manuscript of an archaic language with our ability to read the underlying meaning behind everything unfolding within our experience. And then we see that our very lives are the breathing expressions of the Holy Texts themselves, with all of their hidden meaning, mystery, and sacred wisdom. 

And with all of this, we come to know that there is an intelligence that is working through each and every one of us. 

Call it Light, Source, Creator or God. You are a part of It, and It is a part of you. And you can relax into the journey that It has you on, for there is profound meaning and intelligence that echoes behind everything that you are going through.

And even if you can’t see the higher order behind your experience, then make the conscious choice to trust that it’s there, and lovingly empower yourself to defy the limitations of your perception.

Alchemize your fear into faith. 

And for me, this attunement of consciousness all starts with prayer – with setting aside time everyday to offer myself to God. And through this offering, God shares a fractal of Its mind with me through this expanded hyper-connected state of perception – something we ALL have unlimited access to. 

So, this painting is called “The Offering” to symbolize the essence of this prayerful intention. 

The figure in the center is one who is offering themselves to God, in service. The white doves around them represent the peace that comes only through offering oneself to God. This central figure is completely surrendered to their true purpose, to their True Self. 

Around the figure are 7 different hieroglyphic scenes, symmetrically mirrored on both sides (except of the one at the top), creating 13 panels depicting the evolution of consciousness through offering oneself in service. 

Starting from the bottom, going to the top:

1.) Childhood. Conditioned consciousness through the family upbringing. 

2.) Autonomy. Discovering oneself as an individuated person in the world of conditioning.

3.) Establishing a connection with one’s Higher Self (Higher Mind), or Soul. 

4.) Learning to connect relationally one-on-one through connecting with the Higher Self of another. The beginning realization that all Higher Selves share one Higher Mind. 

5.) The realization that all Higher Selves are joined by one Higher Mind collectively (the Mind of God) 

6.) The realization that all of nature and the cosmos is included within the workings of this one Universal Mind. Our Higher Self is one with all things. 

7.) The Christ Consciousness state, or the perception of Light Itself. 

And there are white lines joining the figure in the center and all of the scenes within the panels, representing the Light that is guiding every iteration of growth, and that connects all of the seasons and cycles of our journeys. 

And the golden figure at the bottom with trees sprouting from its arms, is a symbol representing the interconnectedness of all things, with the tendrils of its branches framing and surrounding the central figure. 

And so this piece emerged out of the inner dimensions of my prayer life, to be a materialized prayer in and of itself. Similar to the intelligence of Light manifesting as the geometry of a plant, this is the intelligence of Light expressing through me, as the geometry of this piece of art.

Anyways, thank you for taking this all in, and for continuing to be a part of my creative journey. 

May you be blessed beyond comprehension. 

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The Body’s Eyes Do Not Actually See.

The body’s eyes do not actually see.

And the body’s ears do not actually hear.

Working as a professional intuitive, I will tell you that I see much more into a person with my eyes closed, and my gaze turned inward, than I do fixated on their physical image.

In fact, their physical image is extremely limiting, and can often be distracting and misleading, eclipsing me from sensing into the deeper reality of their soul. When I attune my senses away from the external, and focus upon the internal, I perceive the deeper layers of a person, seeing them much more honestly and authentically, rather than pigeon-holing them into shallow judgements based off of socially-conditioned objectification.

And I will tell you – there is an inner vision that will allow you to perceive much more clearly than your physical eyes ever will.

If you knew how incredibly limiting your physical sight was, compared to the inner vision that you have access to, you would realize how hypnotized we have been as a culture, into seeing one-another through an unbelievably shallow and one-dimensional bandwidth of perception. With my gaze turned inward, I see into the innermost secrets of another’s heart.

I see the silent pain that they carry, and the hidden burdens that remain unexpressed. I see through layers of conditioning and trauma, into the deeper patterning and motivations underlying their choices. I see the profound love and inspiration that yearns to overflow from the primordial wellspring of their essence. And I see the purity of an innocence that shines with the radiance of a million suns.

And that innocence is the most beautiful thing that I have ever bore witness to. And it is unlike anything of this world.

These are the inner dimensions of a person that could never be revealed through the body’s eyes alone.

So, it absolutely astonishes me, that we have been so conditioned to perceive each other as such faded and shallow caricatures of what we actually are. Being so fixated on external image, we limit ourselves and each other to what we are not, overly identifying with the shallow biological “needs” of the body. And with this, we overlook and ignore the more authentic reality of the soul.

And then we build relationships upon these shallow and limited perceptions of each other.

Prioritizing the body over the soul, the image over the content – the ego over God, we attempt to erect cathedrals out of dust, and then we wonder why our lives feel so unstable, conflicted, shallow and broken. We wonder why our relationships fail time and time again.

We think it’s because we just haven’t found the “right” person yet.

No.

Let me save you some time.

It’s not about finding the “right” person.

It’s about putting priorities in their proper order. It’s about prioritizing the soul over the body, the content over the image, and God over the ego.

The priorities of this world have been completely inverted, which is why this realm is so chaotic. And the inversions have been normalized through conditioning, trauma, media, and addiction.

Do you think you could prioritize anything before God, and truly be at peace?

Once again, the body’s eyes do not actually see. And the body’s ears do not actually hear.

Loosen your grip on the hypnotic trance of the external world, and gently shift your awareness inward, and look upon the shining landscapes of the soul’s reality. Of God’s reality.

And prioritize the beauty of the soul before anything else.

Do this, and watch you, and your life, transform. Because miracles are real. And magic is real.

And it starts with placing value, where true value actually abides.

Self-Acceptance, Magic, and Miracle-Working

Something that I am realizing more and more – any desire for external approval or acceptance will inevitably let you down. 

Why?

Because it’s higher function is to fail you again and again until you no longer look outside of yourself for approval of who you are.

We live in a world where we mistake external acceptance for love. 

External acceptance is not love, but it’s a hollow shell that we mistake for it. 

“If I am good-looking enough, if I have enough money, if I have the right career, or the right combination of material things, or the right image, then I will finally be lovable.”

And then we achieve those things for a moment, and then the moment passes. And we lose what we worked so hard for, to make us lovable in the eyes of others. 

And then we are met with the devastating blow of loss, initiating us into a form of internal death. But the only part of ourselves that dies is the part of us that denied ourselves for the sake of receiving approval from the world around us. 

And then we are left with ourselves, and with God. 

And maybe if we are blessed, there will be a small handful of those who are with us through all the up’s and down’s, despite how things may change. And these relationships are those holy gems that are valuable beyond worth, stemming from a love beyond this world.  

But ultimately, our true strength rests solely between ourselves and God. 

As a child, I felt like I was met with rejection everywhere I turned – I was bullied and rejected for the way I looked, I was terrible at sports and was always seen as the “runt”, and I was very sensitive and empathic which was perceived as a sign of weakness (especially being a male). 

Realizing I was pretty awkward in my body, I gravitated to music as a teenager to channel my sensitivity, as well as to compensate for the physical deficiencies I felt that I had. And then by my late teens and early twenties, my entire identity was completely wrapped up in my ability as a musician. If I was praised for my musical prowess, then I felt loved and accepted. If I gave a bad performance, then I felt completely and utterly worthless. 

As I got into my early twenties, I struggled with crippling poverty and was always a hairline away from living on the streets. I was opening “psychically” which drove me into a very deep and passionate relationship with painting (I now work as a professional intuitive). This was because art was my primary way of processing the excess information that was overloading my system. I didn’t know how to really give readings at that time, or to use my abilities in a healing capacity, so I just obsessively made art to help me process. 

Though I was passionate, I felt crazy. Because I was so artistically obsessed and psychically overwhelmed, it felt impossible for me to hold a “normal” job. Working 8 hours a day at a cash-register, or some other day job, still barely making enough to survive – it felt insane to me. I would look out at people driving these lavish cars and living in these lavish homes, and was just completely baffled as to how people could maintain their sanity and hold such extravagant lifestyles together. 

So throughout my early twenties, I felt exiled and rejected by a society that I struggled desperately to be a part of. This mirrored and reflected my childhood wounds of rejection and feeling ostracized for being different.  

There was always a streak of creative genius in me that gave me a sense of purpose, and thank God for that. And thank God I never gave up on it.

At some point, in the later half of my twenties, something shifted. And I remember just completely giving up.

I worked so hard to try to “fit-in” so that I could be lovable and prove something of myself to the world. I tried a million different jobs to find the “right one”. I did everything I could to make money so that I could be seen as powerful and worthy in the eyes of others. I altered my image a million times over to try to find the one that would give the most validation and acceptance. 

And no matter how hard I tried, nothing worked. 

I tried to measure up to every societal standard in the book.

And I just failed. Time and time again.

And then I realized that maybe this was a game that I was just never meant to win. 

So I turned to God, and I said:

“God, you take me. I have tried my whole life to fit into this world, and I just fail, over and over. I am tired. I am exhausted. And I don’t know what to do. I have finally realized that I will never fit into this world, because I am not of this world. 

I do not belong to this world of conditioned love, where people are praised for shallow amusements and things that will never last. Where the brilliance of one’s soul is traded like a commodity for that which withers and fades like the passing of the seasons. Where people fall in love with hollow images, rather than the passionate fire of truth that burns within another’s heart.

God, I do not belong to this world. I belong to yours.

I belong to a world that shines forever, where my value rests far beyond what can ever be measured. Where my love is not limited to some shallow caricature of how I desire somebody to be, but rather my love unconditionally celebrates the unique spark of another’s essence. Where the expression and loving nurturance of the soul take priority above everything else. 

God I do not belong to the world of conditioned fantasies, I belong to your world of eternal truth.”

And from that moment, everything in my life began to shift. 

It was as if as soon as I started to truly accept myself, reality began to rearrange everything in my life in drastic and significant ways. 

Rather than trying so hard to make things happen, things started to effortlessly and miraculously manifest on their own. I began to see miracle after miracle, and I began to follow a stream of synchronicities that were guiding me towards a path of healing not only myself, but of healing others.

I began to form a loving relationship with a higher intelligence, whose voice spoke to me through the echo-chambers of my reality. My life began to feel more dream-like, more fluid and malleable. 

“Was there always this loving force that sought to guide me? Was this always here? Was the world always this loving? This embracing and supportive of my growth?”

Through this, I have come to realize that there is a deeper reality that calls us to it. It is unconditionally loving. It is highly intelligent. And it wants nothing more than to guide us and support our growth. If you have ever witnessed synchronicities, or miracles in your life, then you have seen glimpses and evidence of the deeper reality that we are forever a part of.

This reality exists beneath the wavelength of our conditioned world. But nonetheless, it is always there. It merely awaits our maturity and readiness to perceive it.

For me, I began to touch this reality more intimately, when I began to accept myself. My True Self. 

This is because I began to see through the eyes of my True Self, which can only see what is truly there. 

Magic is real.

Miracles are real.

And they are far more real than the cloak of fear and comparison that drive the madness of the world we have made for ourselves. 

Because they stem from a deeper reality. 

And the more you trade in the shallow ideas of yourself for what you know to be true about you deep in your heart, the more you begin to see what is always there.

“The Language of Trees”

New Piece – “The Language of Trees”

32” x 32” (with frame) 

Available

This is a collaborative piece created in honor of the intuitive language that humans share with trees (and the non-human world). 

It is the first of a series of collaborative pieces between myself and my very gifted soul-brother, Nathan Sharples, from www.TempleWorks.Studio.

For the past several months, Nathan and I have been brainstorming pieces that combine his woodworking/stained-glass art, with my paintings. And this piece is one of the results. Nathan created this beautiful frame, made of poplar wood embroidered with purple stained-glass (see the figures in the frame). 

To give you a little backstory on my connection with Nathan – I lived on his family’s land in a cabin that he built in Mendocino before I lived in Taos. 

When I first moved to Mendocino a few years ago, I was magically led to Nathan’s majestic and whimsical little shaman cabin tucked back in the redwoods on his family’s property. It had open windows on all sides, which looked into a lush green kingdom of towering ancient trees. The cabin felt like a cross between something out of the fairy worlds of Middle Earth, and the underworlds of ancient shamanism.  

I nested there for about 3 years, developing my art, writing, and speaking while Nathan lived in Oregon developing his practice as a cranial sacral healer. 

As I would create my art, I would hang my paintings on the walls of his cabin, and it just became more and more apparent how well our artistic styles blended together. 

When Covid hit, Nathan moved back to his family’s land, and we had the opportunity to connect more deeply. Getting the chance to spend more time together, it became clear how well we vibed, both artistically and spiritually. 

Then one day, as I was walking along the ocean in a contemplative state, I got struck with the download of Nathan and I collaborating – I saw beautiful clairvoyant visions of wooden frames with stained-glass in Nathan’s style of woodworking, blended with my paintings.

I excitedly brought the idea to Nathan, and he agreed to do one test frame to see how it turned out. 

Upon creating the first experimental “prototype” of combining our crafts, I put it online and within 3 days it sold for a few grand. So, we took this as the “green light” from Spirit to move forward with the collaboration. 

So, Nathan got a CNC wood working machine, and we’ve been creating our first series of works together. 

I must say, I am beyond excited for this collaboration, and I feel incredibly blessed to be working alongside such a gifted and soulful craftsman.

To speak to another dimension of the piece – it is called “The Language of Trees”, in honor of the deeper intuitive language that humans share with trees.

I feel very passionate about interspecies communication between humans and the non-human world, and I feel a strong calling to use my art to bring greater awareness to this deeper intuitive wavelength of communication. 

From my own personal experience, I have had deeply profound experiences communicating with trees and other plants, which has completely altered my sense of self and reality. 

I know to many, this might sound “out-there” or “woo-woo”, but to ancient indigenous and tribal cultures around the world, this deeper listening and communion was paramount to their survival and knowledge of how to use different plants.

Even today, I have many friends that have taken classes in herbalism. And in these herbal studies, the students are often encouraged to intuitively listen to the plant for receiving knowledge about its medicinal properties, rather than just looking it up in a textbook. The ability to listen with sensitivity and intuition is key. 

I truly believe that the precipice of our collective healing rests on our ability to listen. 

In my opinion, humanity’s greatest mistake is that it assumes that it “knows”. 

When we let go of what we assume we know, then we open ourselves to the mystical and dream-like realms of nature. And in this space, our minds become receptacles for a deeper language, one that exists beyond the layers of conditioning that are fed through trauma and addiction, and we touch an aspect of the true reality that we inhabit. 

I have been an educator of intuitive development for the past several years, and I have a passion for helping others connect with their intuition. And for me, it’s not about teaching people to become “psychic”, or whatever you want to call it. It’s about helping people learn how to listen. 

Because that’s what humanity needs more than anything – to learn how to listen. 

To listen more deeply to others. 

To listen more deeply to the natural world.

To listen more deeply to our own hearts and souls. 

In the painting, you can see two beings praising the tree in the center. These two beings dawn a blue halo around their heads from which a tree is rising. This represents their intuitive connection to the tree, and the “oneness” that they share with the consciousness of the tree.

The colorful branches of the tree represent stained-glass, which symbolize the tree as a cathedral, and a portal of worship and connection to Spirit. 

The golden beings behind the two green central figures represent our guides and angels, and the divine support that assists us in re-establishing our connection to the natural world. 

At the bottom, we see six golden beings giving praise to the sun, honoring the source of light that gives rise to all of life. This simultaneously symbolizes both the physical sun, as well as the inner spiritual sun that illuminates our minds and hearts with Holy vision. 

The symbolism of the piece extends into the frame, with the rows of people composed of stained-glass standing on either side of the wood-carved trees on all four sides. This represents communities of people coming together to build societies around a more conscious connection to nature. 

This piece was created as a symbol, as a reminder, of the deeper reality that we are forever a part of, and in honor of the intuitive language that we share with all of life. 

May we remember how to listen. 

And may we remember how to pray. 

Not just for ourselves, but because this is what the world needs the most. 

I would like to extend my gratitude for getting the opportunity to collaborate with the very talented Nathan Sharples on this project. Nathan is an incredible woodworker, architect, writer, artist, and healer, so please be sure to check out more of Nathan’s work at: 

www.TempleWorks.Studio

Thank you all for being a part of my journey. 

May you each be blessed beyond comprehension. 

Seeing others as they are.

Lately, I have been making it a practice to see others more deeply, free from my own projections of them.

When I am not blinded by the hypnotic trance of my physical eyes, focused on their bodies or outer appearances, I am able to see them through an inner vision. And ironically, I can see them more clearly.  

Free of judgement. Free of the associations from my conditioning. Free of anything that I desire them to be, in order to meet some shallow and imaginary need of my own. 

As I allow my vision to be reoriented,  I am able see others more as they are.

And in their eyes, I see layers of them. 

The eyes hide nothing. 

In a split second, I see through layers of personality into the depths of the soul.

I see their burdens, and their silent struggles that go unexpressed. I see the insecurities that they try to keep secret from others, and the bravado that they hide behind. I see the persona they present to the world, and I see the parts of themselves that remain shrouded and tucked away. I see the parts of them that they don’t reveal to others, let alone themselves. And in their eyes, I see the battles raging between angels and demons happening within their innermost thoughts. 

And that is just the surface. 

Within the same split second of looking into their eyes, I see an innocence. An innocence so pure and child-like, that it shatters me to my core. It breaks me open to the fragility of life. To the sacredness of every breath. A shocking yet soft reminder that we are only with each other for a moment. So make the moment count. 

And in their innocence, I see the secrets of their soul. I see the treasures buried that they have yet to uncover. Their hidden genius. Their secret sainthood. Their sanctified spark of anointed praise. 

I see something Holy. 

I see something familiar, as if I have known them forever. 

And I sense that we share a Home with each other. A Home not of this world. 

And within the same split second, I see a kingdom of radiant light shining from behind their eyes. I see entire worlds of ephemeral glowing beauty, living deep within them, remaining untouched and pure, in spite of the ideas they hold of themselves. I see their resurrection. Little do they know, that they contain everything they are looking for. 

They are the food from which they will never go hungry. 

They are the waters from which they will never thirst. 

The only mistake they have ever made, was not seeing who they truly were. 

But I see who they are.

I will see them fully, until they see themselves. 

And I will hold my memory of them in the forefront of my awareness, until they are able to remember on their own. 

And it is only in my remembrance of them, where I remember myself. 

How could this be any other way? 

The eyes of another are mirrors into my innermost self. The pain that they carry is something of my own. Their fears and insecurities I have faced as my own greatest hurdles. The loneliness, the confusion, the heartbreak, the disarray – I know all of it. I recognize it in others, because it is familiar. It lives within myself. 

And their innocence, their love, their hidden genius – they are also something of my own. The only reason why I can feel the depth of their love, is because I feel it coursing from within my own heart. How else could I feel it, if it wasn’t already alive in me? 

And their hidden genius is my own brilliance that plays hide and seek. If I honor and nurture it within them, then I cultivate it within myself. I can be the space through which they come out of hiding. 

All within the split second of looking into their eyes.

The eyes hide nothing. 

Because it is the same Self that looks back at us through the eyes of another. 

And if it is the same Self, then how could anything be truly hidden?

“The Wheel of Relationship”

Lately, I have been feeling inspired to make art that serves as symbolic and hieroglyphic representations of concepts that have showed up in my writings and talks (to go in my book).

This piece is a visual representation of a dictated talk that I gave a few years ago in Mendocino, CA. 

In this talk, I spoke about how consciousness uses an algorithm to evolve itself, much like a piece of computer software. This algorithm consists of consciousness learning how to achieve balance in relationship with other, and then once it achieves balance, then evolves by expanding its capacity to operate within an even greater web of relationship. 

Evolution is the mastery of relationship. 

We see this in biological life, with the progression from single celled organisms, to multi-celled organisms of ever-increasing complexity. 

As humans, we have certain qualities that make us “evolved”, compared to other forms of life. This mostly consists of our intellect, and our wide emotional capacity. The reason why we have these qualities, is for the purpose of navigating the nuances of highly complex systems of relationship – with ourselves as individuals, with each other as a community, with our environment, with time, etc…

So, we evolve through becoming skilled at finding the point of equilibrium, the point of balance, within relationships. Learning how to achieve balance in our relationships is literally at the precipice of our evolution.

I actually believe that “love” can be understood in the terms of balance. I believe we can take this abstract concept, and understand it mathematically and geometrically.

For example, if you “love” your body, you are actively bringing it into a state of balance. Or, if you are in a genuinely “loving” partnership, there will be a healthy reciprocity and balance between both people.  Another example, you “love” and accept yourself, when you equally embrace all the parts of yourself, creating an internal balance of archetypes. 

So, once again, we evolve through the mastery of relationship. This is the “algorithm” of consciousness. 

The golden being in the center represents the indwelling seed of the Divine that is the spark of consciousness. It propels evolution through recognizing itself in other, and through finding balance within relationship. The 4 circles around the golden being represent the different types of relationship that grow us over the course of our lives. 

The bottom circle represents our relationship with ourselves. How we relate to our bodies, our minds, and our unique psychology. As individuals, we are an entire universe in and of ourselves. And there are so many complex elements and nuances to how we relate to ourselves. 

For me personally, the most important aspect of how we relate to ourselves is how we speak to ourselves when no-one else is around. What we tell ourselves on a daily basis, is the foundation for a healthy mind, body, and spirit. I believe that when we speak positively to ourselves, we are inspired to take genuinely loving care of ourselves.

The left circle represents romantic relationship. It represents those holy and tender moments where we experience ourselves through the eyes of another, as we vulnerably merge our bodies, hearts, and souls. We bear the totality of ourselves to another in a way that is intimate and exposed. No other type of relationship offers this level of depth and vulnerability. Not to mention the ongoing balancing act between the polarities – physically, emotionally and spiritually. This intimate balancing act catalyzes tremendous evolution in our lives. 

The top circle represents family, friends, and the wider community. In the context of family and community, we learn how to be of service. How to provide, nurture, and care for one another. We learn about our unique gifts and attributes, and how we can give these parts of ourselves in a way that enlivens both ourselves and others. In this, we learn of our unique “niche” within the tribe. And we learn through our engagement with others, where every person offers us a unique gift of insight, perspective, and talent. 

The circle to the right represents our relationship to all of Creation. It represents our relationship to nature, to the cosmos, and to our Creator. We have a  very deep and intimate relationship with the sun, the moon, the earth, the waters, and the stars. And as we deepen in our connection to the whole of life, veils become removed from our eyes, and we see everything anew. We learn the depth of our true nature through the realization of our oneness with all of life. We realize that it is impossible for us to be alone, even in the midst of our deepest moments of solitude. 

And most importantly we learn of our oneness with our Creator. 

It is through these four aspects of relationship where we learn to see ourselves in other, through a multiplicity of ways. And thus, it is how we evolve. 

So, I leave you with this question:

In what ways are you being called to step into greater balance within your relationships?

Your answer to this is the precipice of your personal evolution.